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Post by pumpkin12903 on Dec 24, 2011 15:43:53 GMT -5
Hi Misty: It's been a long time since I've been on this board. So long that I can't remember how long...but I do remember you and pray that you and your family will find peace and joy this holiday season. Big hugs to you! It's great to see you again my Internet family member (you're 1 of the real 1's)! I hope you've been doing OK. ;D
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Post by Misty419 on Apr 18, 2012 10:18:57 GMT -5
Well it's been awhile since I have been on here... I still struggle every day with the fact that my son is not here, Lately thing have been really hard even though he has been gone for more than nine years... strange that for some odd reason I have been waiting for him to come home and have just realized that that is never going to happen, I feel as though I am just now starting to grieve him and I think it's because I had so many thing keeping me busy from the truth... the court process, the kids ect... Now that the court stuff is over and life is starting to settle down I think I finally have time to really think about it and let me tell you the truth really hurts and I am finding I am crying all the time, sometimes I think I am punishing myself for what happened and deep down feel that I should not be happy in life because weyman is not here.... I still have alot of work to do for myself.... maybe its time to go back to meeting again which I have'nt done in awhile for I felt I was ok and could get through this on my own but now know I can't do it by myself anymore.... I just feel like I need to be with others that have been through the same, I need to be with others that know the pain and heartace of loosing a child....hope you are all doing ok... with love Misty
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Post by drewsmom595 on May 6, 2012 13:14:57 GMT -5
Misty: Please know I'm praying for you and sending positive thoughts and strength your way. Just remember to be gentle with yourself and know that others care very much for you. Take care!
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Post by Misty419 on Sept 15, 2012 12:40:12 GMT -5
I know I have not been here in awhile but find the need to write a bit.. I have this overwhelming fear inside of me and dont know where it is coming from, The only thing I can think of is that Weyman's 10 years since he passed is coming up, I just feel like crying all the time, Weyman has a fb page and on labor day he got so many hits on it and they continue to grow daily, I waswondering who all these people were and then I realized they were all weyman's friends that he went to school with....My heart was suddenly over joyed for my sweet Weyman has not been forgotten, so many remember him and had so many neat stories to tell me about him, so I asked myself why after all this time and the answer is simple, these were all kids, this happened to them to, it bothered them so much that when they got older they began seeking out information on weyman, sad really that so many children had to endure such pain and sadness at such a young age, but wonderful that so many are reaching out to me with there stories and love for my son , amazing such a small act of kindness can do for someone's soul and heart... I know I am not in this alone, and now know I'm not the only one who remembers him.... I miss him so much I think at times I cant go on but then something like this happens to brighten your spirts and you begin to live again
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Post by pumpkin12903 on Sept 18, 2012 10:12:35 GMT -5
I know I have not been here in awhile but find the need to write a bit.. I have this overwhelming fear inside of me and dont know where it is coming from, The only thing I can think of is that Weyman's 10 years since he passed is coming up, I just feel like crying all the time, Weyman has a fb page and on labor day he got so many hits on it and they continue to grow daily, I waswondering who all these people were and then I realized they were all weyman's friends that he went to school with....My heart was suddenly over joyed for my sweet Weyman has not been forgotten, so many remember him and had so many neat stories to tell me about him, so I asked myself why after all this time and the answer is simple, these were all kids, this happened to them to, it bothered them so much that when they got older they began seeking out information on weyman, sad really that so many children had to endure such pain and sadness at such a young age, but wonderful that so many are reaching out to me with there stories and love for my son , amazing such a small act of kindness can do for someone's soul and heart... I know I am not in this alone, and now know I'm not the only one who remembers him.... I miss him so much I think at times I cant go on but then something like this happens to brighten your spirts and you begin to live again Dear Misty419, the emotions you're having near the sadiversary are normal. I'm very glad to hear about the tributes to Weyman you found. Take care.
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Post by Misty419 on Jun 29, 2013 2:30:13 GMT -5
well Hello everyone, Been awhile since I have been on here, I do have to say that this journey has been a long one and so painful. but would like you to know that I have begun a new journey in my life and am very thankful and blessed to have had so many wonderful things happen in my life lately.... now this may not work for everyone but did for me... On June 14, 2013 my beloved son's Birthday I went to see a medium , I went with the intent of being able to here from my son but also agreed to myself that if nothing happened then I was fine with that too... well the outcome was great, I did hear from my son that night and the message was loud and clear, he came through stronger than ever, Most of you know that I carried alot of guilt when it came to dealing with my son's death, mainly because I felt I failed to protect him, I was told that my son said I need to let go of the guilt that I am not the one that did this and the guilt is not my to carry and that no matter what I could not change the outcome of that night , the medium also told me things that I said that night that I never told anyone, after that I kept getting little messages on my facebook all about letting go, and then another message from another medium that had a message for me through facebook that was just as empowering , I have decided it is time to start living and that I carry my son in my heart and memories and that I decided that I could still take him with me into the future... I am not so concentrated on his death but now its all about the life we had together and that is how I choose to remember him, He died with courage , he died protecting his sister and that I believe he is proud to carry with honor, he was a man of 12 years old , he is the biggest man I know, I am also going to DPT group and therapy once a week and have found that my overall out look on life has changed, This does not mean that I am forgetting weyman by any means, it just means I have found peace with it and have learned that I can not change what happened but can change how I respond to it , over the years I have always remained a victim, punishing myself over and over but now understand that I too can be happy and that is what my son would want for me... If I want him to be at peace I have to learn to be at peace
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Post by Misty419 on May 5, 2016 5:53:09 GMT -5
Mothers day is just a few days away and I have a lot of anxiety this year, I just lost my best friend a few months ago which has brought out a lot of of different emotions and flashbacks, I miss my son so much and find that the tears are coming in waves more often even after all these years, They say that time heals all wounds but I have to disagree, After 13 years of going through the ups and downs that comes with a child's death I feel that in time you get more good days than bad but the pain is always there.. Happy Mother's Day to all my Mother friends on the board,May you all have a blessed day.
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Post by friends4ever on May 10, 2016 0:22:42 GMT -5
I hope you made it through Mother's Day ok and just know my thoughts and prayers are with you!
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