Post by sbrooks on Dec 11, 2003 0:00:10 GMT -5
Wow I don't know where to start but I desperatly need a place of relief and some common ground with someone who has a realistic view on stuff like this. I am the oldest of two sisters, and one of the three only adults in my family, which includes my 19 year old sister and my mothers second oldest sister, the rest of my family is a bunch of self-absorbed, control freaks that thinks they are the only ones in this night mare.
Well our stepfather, (although I never refered to him as a father figure, we nicknamed him "Minute Man" because his name is Ben and he was two years older than my moms dad, the pun nickname was perfect)
Well he murdered our mother. Not only did he shoot her nine times he severly beat her up to unconciousness, walked outside to his truck to get his gun, came back and took his time about shooting her. He has then decided, after admitting right away that he did it, that he is going to plead not guilty. So many people are in shock about it, but I knew there was something wrong with this guy no matter how smooth and suave he was. That seems to be the tempting coating on a monster which he turned out to be. Right now I am trying to find out information about his past, since he has hired a detective to try and dig up dirt to defend himself. He has four ex-wives and is paying alimony to all of them, which tells me he has to have a dirty past of some sort, plus the fact that he was so jealous of any time our mother spent with me or my sisters. My youngest sister is 14 and bless her hart, was there for a week and had come home the day before it happened. She won't talk much about it, but the little she has said mom and Ben had been fighting. I don't know how to help my sisters and I am trying so hard to hold it together because most everybody else has gone the extreme but I feel like bursting right now. I am so mad that he is trying to plead not guilty, I mean who does he think he is. Can a person actually not have a concious, he has put us through enough already. I don't care what his reasons may be for killing my mother, no one has the right to take anyones life for any reason what so ever (well unless you are defending yourself or someone innocent whose life is being threatend by another). He supposedly called a cousin of my mothers (who is a real witch, boy has she caused a handfull of problems and she thinks she is number one in the family and she is the one suffering the most from this) and apologized for killing our mother, and that he just did not realize what he was doing. But I have a hard time believing that because not only did he severly beat her up (broken arm and all) he left to go to his truck, load his gun and take his time about shooting her. He had plenty of time to think about it and realize what he was doing. I feel like I am living in the middle of a tornado. I just don't know what to do, where to turn and what to do with all of this. There is nobody that I feel comfortable with sharing this with because I don't want to burden anyone else with it and my poor wonderful husband I'm sure is at the end of his rope with having to deal with my ups and downs.
Well our stepfather, (although I never refered to him as a father figure, we nicknamed him "Minute Man" because his name is Ben and he was two years older than my moms dad, the pun nickname was perfect)
Well he murdered our mother. Not only did he shoot her nine times he severly beat her up to unconciousness, walked outside to his truck to get his gun, came back and took his time about shooting her. He has then decided, after admitting right away that he did it, that he is going to plead not guilty. So many people are in shock about it, but I knew there was something wrong with this guy no matter how smooth and suave he was. That seems to be the tempting coating on a monster which he turned out to be. Right now I am trying to find out information about his past, since he has hired a detective to try and dig up dirt to defend himself. He has four ex-wives and is paying alimony to all of them, which tells me he has to have a dirty past of some sort, plus the fact that he was so jealous of any time our mother spent with me or my sisters. My youngest sister is 14 and bless her hart, was there for a week and had come home the day before it happened. She won't talk much about it, but the little she has said mom and Ben had been fighting. I don't know how to help my sisters and I am trying so hard to hold it together because most everybody else has gone the extreme but I feel like bursting right now. I am so mad that he is trying to plead not guilty, I mean who does he think he is. Can a person actually not have a concious, he has put us through enough already. I don't care what his reasons may be for killing my mother, no one has the right to take anyones life for any reason what so ever (well unless you are defending yourself or someone innocent whose life is being threatend by another). He supposedly called a cousin of my mothers (who is a real witch, boy has she caused a handfull of problems and she thinks she is number one in the family and she is the one suffering the most from this) and apologized for killing our mother, and that he just did not realize what he was doing. But I have a hard time believing that because not only did he severly beat her up (broken arm and all) he left to go to his truck, load his gun and take his time about shooting her. He had plenty of time to think about it and realize what he was doing. I feel like I am living in the middle of a tornado. I just don't know what to do, where to turn and what to do with all of this. There is nobody that I feel comfortable with sharing this with because I don't want to burden anyone else with it and my poor wonderful husband I'm sure is at the end of his rope with having to deal with my ups and downs.