Post by bluepedro on Nov 6, 2005 22:53:08 GMT -5
Hi I am new to this site.
It was recommended from another grieving site.
I just lost my father to murder on Sept 3 2005.
My step son murdered him
This is still very fresh in my life. My father lived with me for the last 5 years. He was a very quiet and private man. He never went out of the house except to go to Dr appointments. He was not a mean or bad man at all.. I can not understand why Aaron killed him. They got along there is no reason on this earth that I can make sense of this... Aaron is not a mean or viscous person. He was high on drugs apparently... But still I just can not make any sense of this,,,
I loved my dad with all my heart, He was the last parent in my life there was only my sister and I left, and he was taken away from us so viciously. he did not deserve this..I can't understand why they got along ...But how do I grieve I can't hate Aaron I want to but how he has been in my life as a step son for 25 years... How do I find the anger where do I let it go..
I had to move out of my home...The thought are just to fresh when I go there... I have so much quilt that There should have been signs there must have been something but I just did not see it...How do I go on in my family... My husbands son killed my father I want to get angry and yell but I can't hurt my husband I feel so betrayed and empty I just don't see any light at the end of the tunnel... I have this need to know what happened why it happened and yet my heart i know nitrating that he can say will bring my dad back.. Or make this any easier....
I am so grateful to see that there are other people i feel so alone. I figured that this was so unique that no one could know how I was feeling it is such a blessing to find this site,,, Please let me know how you manage to live your life's and go on.. they say move on with your life but how can you when nothing is settled or will be settled to this goes there court... will this destroy my relationship. how do I move on..
that is it for know
Iris
It was recommended from another grieving site.
I just lost my father to murder on Sept 3 2005.
My step son murdered him
This is still very fresh in my life. My father lived with me for the last 5 years. He was a very quiet and private man. He never went out of the house except to go to Dr appointments. He was not a mean or bad man at all.. I can not understand why Aaron killed him. They got along there is no reason on this earth that I can make sense of this... Aaron is not a mean or viscous person. He was high on drugs apparently... But still I just can not make any sense of this,,,
I loved my dad with all my heart, He was the last parent in my life there was only my sister and I left, and he was taken away from us so viciously. he did not deserve this..I can't understand why they got along ...But how do I grieve I can't hate Aaron I want to but how he has been in my life as a step son for 25 years... How do I find the anger where do I let it go..
I had to move out of my home...The thought are just to fresh when I go there... I have so much quilt that There should have been signs there must have been something but I just did not see it...How do I go on in my family... My husbands son killed my father I want to get angry and yell but I can't hurt my husband I feel so betrayed and empty I just don't see any light at the end of the tunnel... I have this need to know what happened why it happened and yet my heart i know nitrating that he can say will bring my dad back.. Or make this any easier....
I am so grateful to see that there are other people i feel so alone. I figured that this was so unique that no one could know how I was feeling it is such a blessing to find this site,,, Please let me know how you manage to live your life's and go on.. they say move on with your life but how can you when nothing is settled or will be settled to this goes there court... will this destroy my relationship. how do I move on..
that is it for know
Iris