toniann
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Post by toniann on Jul 7, 2006 23:18:38 GMT -5
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Post by taterfay on Jul 8, 2006 14:42:10 GMT -5
I went and signed the memorial. This is an instance where I really do believe it wasn't his fault. You are an angel for being able to forgive him. I know it probably isn't easy all of the time. Though I have a lot of anger towards my sister's ex-boyfriend, part of me knows he was very mentally ill and I believe that one day I will forgive him somewhat in my own way. Anger (for me) doesn't much good. I know others feel differently and I respect what they feel as well. You lost not only your daughter but ANOTHER family member and I am SO SORRY, Toniann (I don't think "I'm sorry" can ever be said enough!) Thanks for sharing this with us!!
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Post by drewsmom595 on Jul 8, 2006 20:21:46 GMT -5
Both Sammy and Jessica were such good looking kids. My heart goes out to you, toniann. I truly admire you.
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Post by pumpkin12903 on Jul 9, 2006 10:35:45 GMT -5
I looked at the page and was touched. I can understand your forgiveness of him. I'm glad you were able to do that. I think you'll agree with me that forgiveness frees us a lot. I'm so sorry that you lost both of them. Take care.
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toniann
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Post by toniann on Jul 10, 2006 16:44:57 GMT -5
Well to all of you Thank you and yes I am very glad I can forgive him......I cant imagine the anger you all have and when I see what you all have to go through with trials and punishment( or the lack of) I am even more thankful......My mother and others in my family are not as fortunate........See because they were so close throughout their lives and loved each other so.......We had a double Funural and buried them next to each outher. It was the biggest funural our town had ever had. EVER...People couldnt park and lots coulnt even get into the lobby ( visiting room) area My mother didnt go...and wont go to the cemetary....she feals as though he was an animal for killing Jessica and wont have a thing to do with him.......
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Post by wordup on Jul 11, 2006 1:23:31 GMT -5
hello toniann just want to say thanks for sharing the site with us, I was a little confused at first but soon caught up, and I tell you, for even thinking like you are says a lot about you, it is a wonderful site yet sad, We are talking about first cousin here right? Jessica and Sam .brother and sister children? just wondered if I had that part right. Take care.
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toniann
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Post by toniann on Jul 11, 2006 17:45:38 GMT -5
Thank you all for your support....i sometimes are confused and doubtful on how I feel.....but I know how much he cared for her.....Kenny said "maybe he cared a little too much, wanted to take her with him" But really only God knows yes,wordup (whats your name?) first cousins oh and I was finally able to write the story down......I am posting it now on Jessica own thread i figure she deserves her own.......oxoxoxoxxo toni
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Post by wordup on Jul 18, 2006 23:22:15 GMT -5
Hello toniann, as I read the above post, maybe Kenny has a point I hadn't thought about that one, my name is Kathy. good to hear you have taken on yourself to write something about Jessica this will be good for those of us who visit. Take care.
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Post by meme on Jul 21, 2006 22:20:45 GMT -5
They both look so innocent and young. This is heartbreaking.
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toniann
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Post by toniann on Jul 22, 2006 6:39:03 GMT -5
very heartbreaking meme.... thanks for your support, this happened over a year ago and still it seems to consume my very every breath I wish it wouldlet me go........ I think about it constantly. my soul is wounded and dont see any future recovery.........oxoxoxoxo toni
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