toniann
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Post by toniann on Jul 11, 2006 17:48:36 GMT -5
First I want to tell you thank you for signing Jessicas book......I will try to tell you the story but know that my tears are falling as I am doing so. Sammy was born 6 months after Jessica. Jessica and Sammy always lived within walking distance of each other and became very close.... He was my sister -in-laws second boy and Jessica was my first born... I knew from the start he was troubled...no one else wanted to see it or except it so because he loved us and we loved him we just let things go......as they grew they grew closer and loved each other so much. Sayng that, I will go on to the tragedy....a couple of days before,,Sammy started acting wierd, not very respondent and my kids were very worried and Jessica stayed up with him all night the night the night before saying she was afraid to leave him alone..well I never dreamed it was that bad he never showed any violence to any of us...She came home from sams the that morning tired and fell asleep on the couch. Her Daddy and I had to go to the Dollar Store and left her there asleep. Anhour and a half later we came home to Find the entire street blocked off and 4 county cars 2 F.B.I. cars and Texas rangers lined up in front of my sister-in-laws house........The first thing I did was run into the house and Jessica was gone... apperently someone had heard a young lady screaming like crazy and called 911.....they showed up and found Sammy standing in his front door with a knife ......They ordered him to come out and he went back in.....after 4 hours they threw tear gas in and when noone come out they went in....Sammy had shot himself in the head with an AK-47...no Jessica She was later found at a home nearby dead...stabbed , she had ran for help..noone was home she broke a window climbed in to use their phone...which had been disconnected the day before....and did not have the strength to do any more... istead of bleeding on the families floor she climbed into the bathtub and blead to death.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I cant believe I told it all without loosing it............I am sorry I have to let you go that was very hard for me thank you againoxoxoxox toni
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Post by drewsmom595 on Jul 11, 2006 21:40:52 GMT -5
Big hugs to you, toniann. How hard it must've been for you to write down Jessica's story. It brought tears to my eyes too as I read it. The fact that she cared enough to not bleed on a neighbor's floor spoke volumes about what a wonderful, thoughtful, caring person that she was. What a terrible tragedy...to suffer two losses at the same time.
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Post by pumpkin12903 on Jul 12, 2006 10:05:19 GMT -5
Toniann, I'm so sorry. If you don't mind my asking, had Sammy been diagnosed with any mental illness before this happened?
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toniann
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Post by toniann on Jul 12, 2006 17:39:36 GMT -5
No laura he was never bad enough for his mother to admit it and when I would say something they took it as a stab at Sams character....maybe I didnt love him or something I dont know.......but Like I said it was borderline until days before........and he had a loving heart... he charished us all ...and we him....So it was just not discussed? thank all of you for understanding and sharing your kindness it really has helped being here and will continue to do so I am sure......and yes it was very hard to tell the story..I saved it so I can copy now....oxoxoxoxxoxo toni
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Post by taterfay on Jul 12, 2006 19:19:01 GMT -5
Toniann: I am really proud of you for telling the TERRIBLY hard story of Sammy and Jessica. I can't even imagine what must have gone through your mind when you came back and your street was blocked off. Did you think at first that something had happened to somebody else or did you immediately have a weird, instinctual gut feeling that it was Jessica and/or Sammy. Man, it just makes me so sad. Telling these stories over and over again is very healing in the long run, I believe. The thing that drives me crazy is that I don't KNOW exactly what happened to my sister. There were no witnesses to her brutal beating (except butthead and Josiah, who was still in her womb at the time)...I don't know WHAT they fought about....HOW he attacked her that caused her to have a severe brain injury, etc. Though it will be really hard, I WANT to know these details. I may never know, though. Thanks so much for sharing this story with us. I know it was hard, but you got it out:) Big Hugs, sweetie!
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Post by drewsmom595 on Jul 13, 2006 5:39:09 GMT -5
Toniann:
I forgot to mention that tour story has a lot of similarities to mine (although it was my Dad that was killed by my mentally ill brother). My parents, too, didn't want to admit that Kurt was mentally ill. And I, too, had to come home (I live 5 houses away from my parents) to the street blocked off with crime scene tape and police cars. It took a long time before I could drive down my street without seeing the yellow crime scene tape there. I'm happy to say that I don't see it there now...so don't worry if you still imagine the crime scene tape is there.
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Post by mattsma on Jul 13, 2006 8:08:29 GMT -5
toniann, I send you a big hug & . I am glad that you had the courage to put her story in words. Thank you for sharing her story. take care & b-safe deb
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Post by pumpkin12903 on Aug 5, 2006 7:29:58 GMT -5
Toniann, I believe you did love him by pointing out his problems. This was the RIGHT and loving thing for you to do. I'm very glad you had the caring to do this. I think you did what you could do. 1 of the worst tragedies to me is we see the person needs help, and help isn't gotten. We can't force people. The mental health laws went from too strict to too liberal is 1 reason I think things are such a mess. I'm very glad and admire that you spoke up. You tried. Take care.
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