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Post by gladriel on Jun 5, 2009 10:31:46 GMT -5
I really wish there was a magic pill that we all could take to make our visions and pain go away! I come on this site to read and maybe make a comment and well ..... to feel at home because quite honestly I feel like you all are the only people whom understand what its like to witness or lose a loved one in a horrible way. As soon as I begin to read I feel a kinship kinda thing like these people know what I'm going thru. Yet, I haven't met any of you ....what a concept how we can feel like a group. As for the past posts in forgiveness....I'm still confused with that one, part of me wants to forgive to let it go....but on the other hand why...why should I? The thing as I like to call her hasn't shown any remorse all her miserable life, but she's at least 81 now and I'm still waiting for the grim reaper to come and take her and drag her kicking and screaming to hell! Man what a day that will be and mark my words one day I will dance on her grave and maybe a few bodily fluids if possible. So forgiveness I guess I'm just not there yet....! But I wanted to thank everyone here for just letting me vent. Thanks so much to all of you...Gladriel
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Post by Janet-Beth's Mom on Jun 5, 2009 12:26:49 GMT -5
Hi Gladriel,
Oh how I wish the same - that there was a magic pill to make it stop. If only, but there does not seem to be.
I don't feel so confused about the forgiveness as I used to. I simply know that it is not for me, not in me, I don't even feel it is my place to forgive them. My biggest challenges still seem to be the grief and the PTSD, and there is no effect it would have on those things anyway, so I simply don't worry about the issue of forgiveness like I used to. But I also know that there are others who say it has helped them, so I am glad for each person that finds even one way to feel at least a bit better about all of this.
That is one thing that I love about this place - that all can share what has helped them, or ask what might help if they are at a loss. And each person can decide what to take from here that might help them in their own situation too.
So I see some hope of some relief in each vent that is here, and I am glad for each time I have this place to vent myself. If there is no magic pill, at least we can share what we each have found to help us walk around in it a bit better.
Janet
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