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Post by starkiss on Oct 9, 2010 20:37:36 GMT -5
Hello MV Fr iends!! So it has been nine months and I guess I have been good. Until two weeks ago. I am trying to move on and I know I need to but then I thought about my Albert and I just broke down. He was suppose to be moving with me and now the kids and I find ourself moving to another city by ourselves. I feel the new start will help out but it is still hard. We still don't have any new about the trial or what the DA is doing. Its so fustrating and aggravating. This is so unnatural for someone you love to be taken in such a violent way. Why is our world so dangerous. Some days I don't feel safe and alot of times I don't trust people. IDK I am just feeling some kinda way. Thanks for listening!!!! Sorry for rambling.
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Post by Janet-Beth's Mom on Oct 14, 2010 6:44:36 GMT -5
Hi starkiss, That must be so hard, to be leaving the last place where you were with your Albert, even if it is a move for the better with your family. When we sold our house in town and moved to the country, it was very hard for me to leave Beth's room, the stairs she used to run up and down, and that house where she last was with us. But I knew I would feel safer if I got out of town too, and it was true, I did. I still have containers with her things in them, the things I could not let go of. I still have her last clothes that were in the basket in her closet, and have never washed them. There are things that were hers throughout my house. Wherever we go, we can carry the things that help us to remember them with us - that has brought me some comfort. I don't think we have to really "move on". But I have had to find ways to walk around in it being there a bit easier. And that helped to make that one thing a bit easier for me at least. Yes it is so frustrating and aggravating waiting for the trial, it can and does usually take years. I hope it is some comfort to you, to know that is not unusual. I know in our case when some new evidence was found during investigations, it took over 6 months to have it tested. It is unbelievable to me how slow it can be. But I don't know if I could have handled it if it had happened any sooner either. So it is hard for me, looking back, to know what could have been better too. I hope there is justice for you and your Albert as soon as there can be, and that you can feel at least a bit safer and more comfortable once you are in your new place. Janet
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Post by c21king2queen on Oct 15, 2010 17:55:50 GMT -5
I know it is difficult to leave the last place he lived with you and knowing that he will not be moving with you. It is especially difficult leaving the memories you shared in that home with him. Sometimes it does help to move on and have a fresh start. It is very difficult. On the 26th of October it will be 2 and 1/2 years since the murder of my husband, love of my life and father of my only child. We had just moved into a new home. We had only lived there for about a month. Following his murder I wanted to stay because that is the last place my husband lived with my son and I. I felt like a part of me was still waiting for him to come home. I had good memories there. I didn't want to leave that. It wasn't long after his murder that people began entering my home and car illegally and repeatedly and playing cruel, sick, twisted and illegal games with my son and I. There was never any forced entry. They had keys. The same keys that were found at the scene of the crime and the scene where my husband's car was found. The same keys that have been in evidence at the Sheriff's Department since they found my husband's body and car. My son and I moved for our physical and emotional safety. I now live with a security system and a loaded shot gun. I had all the locks on my car changed and rekeyed. No one has entered my home or car since. The new house doesn't have my husband's scent or the memories of him there. He will always live in my heart and soul. Your Albert will always be in your heart. His love remains with you. At this point, I really wish I could move far, far away from this County, District, and State. I can't afford it right now and I am also staying for my parents. My mom has cancer. When my parents are gone, I will move so far from this County, District and State. This used to be my home, a safe harbor, I grew up here and have spent most of my life here. My son was born here and it is the only home he has known. My son and I have been homeless since my husband was murdered. A change of scenery can be good, a new life and putting all the bad stuff behind you and only remembering the good, wonderful and happy times. It has been about 2 and 1/2 years and my husband's case hasn't been to trial yet. Two suspects were indicted for 1st degree murder and felony conspiracy just two weeks after my husband's murder. One suspects has been out on bond for nearly a year and the other for several months. I will have to go through 2 trials, one for each of the 2 suspects. Following the murder trials, I will have to go through a civil court case for 3.06 acres of land, the reason my husband was murdered. I have heard the expression, "The wheels of justice churn very slowly." Sometimes that is so true. It seems to me like there is no real justice in this world. We can all take some comfort in knowing that God will have the final Judgement. In the end God's Justice will prevail!!
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