Post by c21king2queen on Jan 25, 2011 17:08:15 GMT -5
Do young children somehow see and communicate with dead loved ones?? Lately my son has been saying, "That's the story of me." He babbles in jibberish and then what I can understand is about putting his swimsuit on and swimming around. The other night we went to Food Lion and he started calling out, "I hear dad!! Dad!! Dad!! Dad is coming tomorrow!!" I kept telling him that his dad is in heaven doing a special job for God. The next morning he was saying, "That's the story of me." This time he pointed to his room and said, "That picture in my room, that's the story of me." The picture he was referring to is a picture of him with his daddy swimming in the pool. It was the first or one of the first times we took him to the pool. Then he looked at me and said, "Dad give you a hug," and he wrapped his arms around me and gave me a hug. When he pulled away from the hug he said, "Mom don't cry, I don't want you to cry." It was sad and comforting at the same time. I really wish my husband could hug me. I miss that so much. I am so frustrated by all that I have been going through and will continue to go through because of my husband's loss and the way I lost him. I am now at a point that I am considering taking up a life of crime to provide for my son. Crime pays. Criminals recieve all sorts of rights and services for free. Victims have no rights and recieve no free services. Victims are victimized and punished for being innocent victims. Criminals are rewarded for their crimes and don't pay for their crimes. Tax payers and innocent victims pay for the crimes of these criminals. Murder Victims pay the highest price of all for the crimes of murderers, they pay with their lives. The people responsible for my husband's murder didn't just take my husband's life, they took my life and my son's life. I am broke. I have depleted my bank account. Tomorrow I have to do something I never wanted to ever have to do. I have to take the money out of my son's savings account to pay bills and buy a Birthday present for my son. My husband and I started that savings account to start saving for our son's future. It's not a lot of money, but it will buy my son and I a little more time financially. When that money is gone, I don't know what I will do. Our monthly cost of living and my son's needs exceed my monthly income. If my husband were still alive I wouldn't have all these emotional, physical and financial worries. I love my husband and miss him so much. I wish he were here to help me raise our son, to help me with everything, and to be my friend to lean on and hug when I need a hug, like right now. I keep praying for God to help me and I'm trying to hang on to my faith. It is hard to keep hanging on when nothing is working for you. I am still waiting for 2 murder trials and a civil court case.