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Post by c21king2queen on Jan 26, 2011 18:35:59 GMT -5
Today I picked my son up from the Child Development Center (CDC) that he attends 5 days a week. As I was strapping him into his carseat he said, " I don't want to leave Dad. Dad's at school." I asked him what his dad was doing at school and he replied, "Dad come to school and talk to Mrs. Miller and drive the cars." I don't know where he is getting all this stuff about dad from. It may be that he hears others at school talking about their dad. Sometimes he sees other kids with their dads and refers to their dad as his dad. He wants his own dad. I wish my husband could be here to help raise him and be an active part of his life. I wish my son could have his dad here. It breaks my heart more every time he sees other kids with their dads and every time he talks about "dad." My son will always be on the outside looking in, left out, without a father and wishing that he could have a dad. My son will miss out on one of the most important things in life, learning and knowing the love between a father and a son. I have to spend the rest of my life without the love of my life, husband, and father of my only child. My son and I have to live with this for the rest of our lives. I wish we could wake up from this nightmare and get out of this hell on earth we have been living in since April 26, 2008.
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Post by Janet-Beth's Mom on Jan 26, 2011 23:37:50 GMT -5
The most painful things I've experienced as a parent were my children being hurt. That must be so hard to bear on top of all you already have anyway. I really cannot know what that must feel like, and I hope some others who have raised the little ones themselves in the aftermath will be writing here to you too. What I am reading here makes me think he is already trying to find ways to feel better somehow, even though he can't really understand yet. And he has you to help him understand as he grows older. He has you no matter what. Yes he should have his Daddy, and oh how I wish he did and that you did too.
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Post by kmwhitley on Jan 31, 2011 22:04:32 GMT -5
I am so sorry for your loss...I was not a biological parent to my brother (Matthew, he had just turned 9 years old 3 days before our mom was shot) but I do know he suffered a lot. There was many of nights i was up with him all night while he cried for momma and I cried with him. If he talked to others like your son, I never heard it, but that could just be your son's way of coping with the loss. Matthew lost his mom and his dad because he knew that his dad was behind the murder of momma and so he disowned him himself. Sad but true...
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