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Post by tamècasmom on Apr 16, 2011 9:31:40 GMT -5
Three days ago was the first time I said my daughter was dead to myself or out loud. I used phases like she is in heaven or her name has been called but I never said she was dead. I had no problem saying Tamèca was murdered. I cried after I said said my daughter was dead, it was like I finally got it through my head Tamèca is never coming back.
Had to share my experience with people who I felt might understand how I am feeling and how I felt, when I said the word "dead" in reference to my beloved Tamèca, for the first time.
Dawn
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Post by pumpkin12903 on Apr 17, 2011 13:39:16 GMT -5
Three days ago was the first time I said my daughter was dead to myself or out loud. I used phases like she is in heaven or her name has been called but I never said she was dead. I had no problem saying Tamèca was murdered. I cried after I said said my daughter was dead, it was like I finally got it through my head Tamèca is never coming back. Had to share my experience with people who I felt might understand how I am feeling and how I felt, when I said the word "dead" in reference to my beloved Tamèca, for the first time. Dawn Dear Dawn, I wouldn't believe my Dad was dead until the funeral. It's hard to explain. Everything outside my mind was telling me he was dead: my family, the detectives, that I never saw him again, etc. But, in my mind I wouldn't believe it until I saw his coffin at the funeral. I don't know if this was a "coping" thing or what. Maybe it was the start of my post-traumatic stress disorder? My familys' case is different from yours so of course I don't know completely your feelings on this issue. But, I did want to share how I felt about my Dad until the funeral. It makes me sick that any of us have to go through these HELLS, but thank God for the support out there like on this board! Take care, my friend.
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Post by Janet-Beth's Mom on Apr 17, 2011 17:41:14 GMT -5
The waves of grief....even if they get smaller and calmer for a time, it seems there will always be something to whip them up into those crashing breakers again. That feeling of utter loss returning And usually it's as if I never saw it coming. Acceptance is so hard when it was so unnatural, so sudden, never should have been. Or that's how it seems to me anyway. Bethena's last email address is still in my email address book. I don't even want to think about it not being there. If that's crazy, then I'd rather be crazy. She may not be coming back, but she will always be a part of who I am - Beth's mom, and Tameca will always be a part of who her mom is too. Praying for His care and comfort for you.
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Post by tamècasmom on Apr 19, 2011 8:44:22 GMT -5
Ladies,
Thank you for your comforting words. Your posts helped me get through another rocky road on my life's journey without my beloved daughter.
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Post by ibdlo on Apr 20, 2011 11:51:09 GMT -5
man, it's been almost 11 years since John's death and i still will get fleeting moments when it will gush over me "John is dead". I still just can't believe it sometimes.
and Janet, you're not crazy at all! I totally get that.
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