Post by c21king2queen on Feb 7, 2012 14:31:08 GMT -5
I have learned that there are evil, selfish and greedy people in the world who think nothing of stealing from others, taking a human life and hurting and destroying other innocent lives. I have learned sometimes people show no remorse for taking lives and hurting and destroying other lives. Sometimes their only concern is for themselves, they are selfish instead of selfless and sacrificing. I have also learned that others can enter your home and car repeatedly and illegally and play cruel, sick and twisted games with you and your small child. I have learned they can do these things and get away with it because they can. I have learned that these people feel no remorse. No one is sorry for the lives they have taken and hurt and destroyed. No one wants to be held accountable and responsible. No one wants to offer any apologies. No one wants to even attempt to do the right thing and try to set things right and help with the healing process. Why are people saying B.S. about forgiveness?? How can anyone expect anyone to ever possibly forgive if no one is willing to come forward with answers, say we did this and we are sorry?? If no one is willing to be held accountable and responsible, no one feels remorse or sorry for what they have done....how can I anyone forgive or even consider forgiveness?? I have learned that some things you have to learn to live with for the rest of your life. I have learned that it is better to turn to God with your sorrows and problems rather than hurting others or yourself. I have learned that it is better to turn to God rather than things like drinking, smoking, drugs, or a life of crime. It is through the blood of Jesus that we recieve redemption, purity, gold and greatest riches. He is the way, the truth and the light. I have learned that I will be a Widow and Single Mom for the rest of my life since my husband was murdered. I will always put my son and family ahead of myself. My son has Autism and his therapies are expensive. As long as I remain a Widow without a high income my son is covered by Medicaid. Medicaid covers all of his therapies, medical, dental and prescriptions. I have a child to take care of and a mother to take care of. I will always love my husband and he will always be my son's father even though at times he was physically, emotionally and financially abusive. There was still a lot of good in him. He didn't leave an insurance policy or any substantial amount of money to leave my son and I provided for. He left me with debts, a funeral to pay for and a child to take care of. I would rather look past the bad stuff, let all of that go and remember only the good about my husband. No one deserves to have their life taken. No one deserves to go through what my son and I have been through and will continue to go through for the rest of our lives. I will keep telling my son about his father and keep allowing my son to talk about him. My son and I both need that. What I have been through you never forget and the hope I have of getting over even an ounce of all this is being blocked by people who have no remorse, apologies, and don't want to do the right thing and be held accountable and responsible. I will never really get over the loss of my husband. If he had died another way, other than a violent murder, it would have been easier to deal with and move on. I am still waiting for answers and Justice. I have learned that God is always there for us. God will never leave or forsake us. God will never disappear or die. He is with us always. God provides, protects, watches over and takes care of us. Where man has failed God succeeds!! I have found a much deeper and greater love for God, my son, family, friends, and myself. That is the greatest inheritance worth more than anything else. Life is priceless and irreplaceable.