Post by haesunrichardson on Feb 24, 2012 15:47:09 GMT -5
Thank you to all for sharing your stories, now I know for sure "someone" also experienced and is what I was forced to live thru. For years I wanted and needed to relate with someone who has walked in my shoes. I'm so happy I found this site and 11yrs later here it is.
3/02/01, Friday 10:20 pm, receive a phone call from Desoto, Tx detectives. 2 bodies found in the victim's home, dead since Wednesday night, 2/28/01. My mother and brother. This is the night I will never forget, this is the night the life as I knew ended, and the beginning of my nightmare that lasted for 8yrs.
The 3 killers were caught, 15yr, 18yr +19 yr old. 15yr old testified against the other 2 who got 2 life sentence of 35yrs each to be served consecutively. However, the 15yr old only got probation for 2 yrs.......
Now our "JUSTICE" System is another story.....as you all may already know.
By this time I had already experienced 2 losses in my family. My father to sudden heart attack and baby brother to brain cancer. However, this, this horrible, horrible experience I was forced to endure was nothing I had ever experienced before and I would not wish this onto my worst enemy.
From that night, my memory is vague, going thru the motions, doing only what had to be done, you know.... I stopped living, as a mother,a wife, as a human being consuming me for 8yrs to come.
During this time I remember people saying " get over it honey, put it aside, live your life, try to forget, everything happens for a reason...." it all came and went, in and out, year after year.
Oh,how I wish I knew what I know now back then. I went from a successful Insurance Adjuster to ....... , lost my job, bankruptcy, my bed was my best friend, ect..... to finally began abusing prescription oxycontin to numb my emotions, to not to feel this senseless pain, not to feel anything. I became an addict, losing 8yrs of my life...
I share my story with hope to help another, just be there to listen, to let you know that "someone" is out there experiencing same as you. I found this site 3 days ago. So many countless days and nights, year after year feeling alone, so alone.. a very dark place no one should ever have to experience, yet we are forced to due to actions by bad people.
When anniversary draws near, oh that pain, that deep low sadness, yearning, wishing for my loved one to be here with me who were taken away so suddenly and unfairly, to see my children grow-all the birthdays they missed, being a grandma, uncle, the need for my desire to have them here with me will never cease.
I know it does and will get better in and with time. I will cherish and remember the happy memories and this, no one can take it away.
I faced the real raw feelings and realized the true reality of the situation only 3yrs ago. I now know I can always come to this site to express and share my thoughts and feelings. Thank you.
hsr
3/02/01, Friday 10:20 pm, receive a phone call from Desoto, Tx detectives. 2 bodies found in the victim's home, dead since Wednesday night, 2/28/01. My mother and brother. This is the night I will never forget, this is the night the life as I knew ended, and the beginning of my nightmare that lasted for 8yrs.
The 3 killers were caught, 15yr, 18yr +19 yr old. 15yr old testified against the other 2 who got 2 life sentence of 35yrs each to be served consecutively. However, the 15yr old only got probation for 2 yrs.......
Now our "JUSTICE" System is another story.....as you all may already know.
By this time I had already experienced 2 losses in my family. My father to sudden heart attack and baby brother to brain cancer. However, this, this horrible, horrible experience I was forced to endure was nothing I had ever experienced before and I would not wish this onto my worst enemy.
From that night, my memory is vague, going thru the motions, doing only what had to be done, you know.... I stopped living, as a mother,a wife, as a human being consuming me for 8yrs to come.
During this time I remember people saying " get over it honey, put it aside, live your life, try to forget, everything happens for a reason...." it all came and went, in and out, year after year.
Oh,how I wish I knew what I know now back then. I went from a successful Insurance Adjuster to ....... , lost my job, bankruptcy, my bed was my best friend, ect..... to finally began abusing prescription oxycontin to numb my emotions, to not to feel this senseless pain, not to feel anything. I became an addict, losing 8yrs of my life...
I share my story with hope to help another, just be there to listen, to let you know that "someone" is out there experiencing same as you. I found this site 3 days ago. So many countless days and nights, year after year feeling alone, so alone.. a very dark place no one should ever have to experience, yet we are forced to due to actions by bad people.
When anniversary draws near, oh that pain, that deep low sadness, yearning, wishing for my loved one to be here with me who were taken away so suddenly and unfairly, to see my children grow-all the birthdays they missed, being a grandma, uncle, the need for my desire to have them here with me will never cease.
I know it does and will get better in and with time. I will cherish and remember the happy memories and this, no one can take it away.
I faced the real raw feelings and realized the true reality of the situation only 3yrs ago. I now know I can always come to this site to express and share my thoughts and feelings. Thank you.
hsr