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Post by lifeoflies82 on Apr 23, 2012 11:29:50 GMT -5
On January 14, my father was killed by my mom. I was only 6 years old at the time, and didn't quite understand the severity of the situation. My mom plead insanity and served very little time in mental facility. Growing up she was mean, hurtful, and very detached with little affection to give me. In the back of my mind, I always wondered if my father was really the abuser, crazy, and horrible man that she made him out to be. But yet, I couldn't dare inquire about his death without her going through the roof. I am now 29 years old, and this still bothers me. I just recently found out where his grave was. I found this out on my own. Also, the date of his death. I'm confused because I don't know what to believe about my dad. I'm not so quick to believe her story. She's told me so many lies over the years, I don't trust nothing she says. I feel like she isn't remorseful for taking his life. She has always made me feel like "crap" emotionally. I'm at conflict because I want to have empathy for her, but I can honestly say I'm mad as hell. How can I love her when she shows no remorse or compassion for me or what she has done? I've become to realize that she may be suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder.
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Post by pumpkin12903 on Apr 24, 2012 11:38:01 GMT -5
On January 14, my father was killed by my mom. I was only 6 years old at the time, and didn't quite understand the severity of the situation. My mom plead insanity and served very little time in mental facility. Growing up she was mean, hurtful, and very detached with little affection to give me. In the back of my mind, I always wondered if my father was really the abuser, crazy, and horrible man that she made him out to be. But yet, I couldn't dare inquire about his death without her going through the roof. I am now 29 years old, and this still bothers me. I just recently found out where his grave was. I found this out on my own. Also, the date of his death. I'm confused because I don't know what to believe about my dad. I'm not so quick to believe her story. She's told me so many lies over the years, I don't trust nothing she says. I feel like she isn't remorseful for taking his life. She has always made me feel like "crap" emotionally. I'm at conflict because I want to have empathy for her, but I can honestly say I'm mad as hell. How can I love her when she shows no remorse or compassion for me or what she has done? I've become to realize that she may be suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder. Dear lifeoflies82, I'm very sorry about your dad. I'm glad you found this board and hope you find some comfort here. My Dad was also murdered by my Mother (in 1990). She was found mentally incompetent to be tried and died in the state mental hospital 7 years later. I understand to a big degree your mixed feelings. I love my Mother still, but will always hate what she did. I never wanted her to be free again and didn't want any kind of relationship with her after the murders. If you don't mind my asking, does your dad have any family you can talk to? They might be a help in finding out about him. The anger you feel is normal for what's happened to you. I can understand to a degree why you're conflicted over loving her. Whenever I think of my Mother I get conflicting emotions. Again, welcome to the board. Take care.
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